maths sucks..heck.. sch sucks la..

the subject tat i used to love has taken on a mean and hellish, distorted form.. no longer resembling my first love in life... no numbers.. all alphabets... thats not how maths shud be.. but THEY say it is and i have no choice but to accept it..

Its just like a lover being difficult.. u try to give in... compromise... put in yr effort to make her happy... but then.. sometimes things are even beyond help..no amount of liking for the subject and willingness to learn will actually guarentee that u solve the problems given in the first place.. there's nothing much more satisfiying than solving a complicated problem but on the flipside.. nothin much can be as irritating as not solving one question after spendin almost 45 mins on it.. well.. of coz the opponent number 11 fellow compares with the irritant level as well.. i mean... go get a life... u gotta big mouth and u suck at soccer so u got nothin to shout about in the first place..

Hmm.. okok..anything positive happened today? hmm.. enjoyed the soccer game...my last till may comes around i know... haven seen ammu for a few days now... oh no..sara is gettin soft.. tats bad... this shudnt be!! KK.. i can live with such things.. its gona b a brand new week i suppose but the same old stuff is gona happen... lectures.. engin canteen.. roti prata... never do my tutorials... sort of takin life easy coz there's no point gettin fed up over things beyond yr control... Jus gotta push my lazy mind and body to get down to some serious revision sooner rather den later... exams are less den a month away...

So what??

woke up to a lazy saturday.. the previous day's panguni festivities were stil fresh in my mind..
brother was stil asleep.. understandably tired from yesterday...

okok.. so he didnt carry it all the way himself.. but SO WHAT?? its my duty to help him as a brother and i dont see anything wrong in he takin breaks at times! U relatives only noe how to talk big rite... i mean... if yr carryin smtg heavy on yr shoulder and yr not big size and its not painful for u (for 3+ hours) den u musnt be human in the first place..

I dont care wat u ppl say... he fasted... he carried the kavadi and he fulfiled his vow.. we dont have to answer to you ppl abt anything... Dont forget tat last year dinesh didnt carry it all the way himself either... i helped him also... so plz backtrack and think b4 u talk ok? Being elders isnt enough... u gotta b matured as well.. and let me tell u all that i am REALLY PISSED off at yr comments ok.. try tellin straight to me what u think and i will let u noe wat i feel as well

And come on... i need the time to study also rite... i noe i have to teach u and u are payin me but even a million dollars will not compensate if i flung my exams ok..think and understand... if u reali think tt yr own studies wil b tt affected in this one month.. den by all means get another tutor ok... it wasnt me who asked u if u needed tuition.. its u who came to me.. remember tt

Relatives... one or two at heart.. rest at a distance.. tts how it shud be..

And i didnt even call my ammu coz i had to deal wif all this today... great... but things like this wont keep me down ok.. its sara tt yr talkin abt..

Gona whip someone in tmr's game at yishun tmr!! haha...

wed23 05

the mid week day is supposed to be one where the human mind and body looks forward to finishing the week in peace.... thinking abt the good friday holiday tat is jus ard the corner....

Therefore, imagine how it would feel if u are stuck in school doin a totally unintelligable C programming lab question all the way till 11pm with the deadline being 23.59...

worse.. yr frens have no clue as to how to get it done watsoever... u are out of cash.. u get money from the atm and go to have a combined lunch/dinner at 11.30pm...onli to realise tt the last bus home has long gone by....

u take a cab with yr frens... but each of them live in serangoon, bishan and boon keng... quite close by til u consider the fact tt i live in woodlands.. smart move to take the cab with them in the first place.. u end up paying 18 dollars yrself for the cab fare... great end to a great day....

watching paint dry...

been somewhat a rather lax day compared with the previous one.. not that i am complaining though.. thanks to my gd fren deepan.. got brainwashed to skip my tutorial and go for lunch instead.. hist lecture was a big bore (soccer IS way better than baseball or hockey or watever professor... jus coz u dont like it doesnt mean it sucks.. u are the one that does..realise tt).. fell asleep..as always...left early...as usual..

went back to chit chat a lil with the ics gang til 6 b4 makin my way down to jurong to meet my significant other.. been days since tt happened..

french fries.. lemon tea.. stares and wat not.. haha..

well.. got back home in time.. jus played a few rounds of monopoly online b4 writing this...

hmm...am i like missing smtg for the day??

no wonder.. i haven touched my books yet.. i shall touch them later jus b4 i sleep.. gotta make sure its not infested with silverfish... yet..